In the past month I had to deal with God revealing a lot of truth in my life with an abundance of healing to follow. Although my heart sometimes aches with pain, God has been present. A few nights ago I asked God how will I know if I’m really healing and he promised that if I never turned my eyes from him I would never have to question my healing again. A few weeks ago while I was in distress thinking about the situation I wrote this:

                        If I chose to worry, then I believe satans’ lies instead of Gods truth. If I believe Gods truth then I know he’s already paid the price for my transgressions. Just as I’m not supposed to have earthly confidence- neither can I have earthly shame. God chose it as my pain and made it my privilege. I used to be bruised but now I am the daughter of a King. If I count my pain as a burden then I limit Gods healing. Whatever I find sick and disheartening I will turn into my joy to suffer. I sit in expectation that he will turn it into my greatest blessing. I am void of entitlements and I don’t own a single breath. He is my portion and not just my therapy. He leads my healing and I walk blindly and faithfully. He promised that my cup would overflow but I’m drowning in his love and comfort. Forever I will rejoice in Christ who loves me enough to break me.